First time having sex with bf...turned off?

NO your not its your way or the high way next time im 27 and never had a girl friend so the only time i had sex was 4 yrs ago when i picked up crack heads and when i pay then 20 bucks for sex they would bend over i didnt know what i was doing so i just ram it in there and they would scream and say ouch then say dont do that its sensitive and im trying to hurry because its in a alley and agaist the law so it will slip out and i ram it in again and every time they say f that i already told you and they lean forward so it slips out and they pull there pants up and they say im threw i told you its sensitive right there and they just walk off only one time i cussed at them while they walk off i mostly just stand there all mad when there walking off and since 14 every girl was like that 14-24 i got prostitutes crack heads only and they all had rules most ran off with my money afther dis obeying rules like no finger in but or dont shuv it in once i did they ran so make your own rules for sex intill your use to it dont be a piece of meat b one that can talk(and also in a way he will like as well)